I Hate My Dream Job

Well, this is a great way to bring in the work week huh? Probably not, but lets be real. How many of us knew exactly what we wanted to do entering college? And how many of us changed our minds by our second or third years? And if we’re really honest, how many of us were utterly confused by graduation?

It’s okay if you answered all of the above. You’re not alone. Because I’m here to tell you it’s okay if you don’t like your dream job, especially in your early twenties. This is a time for us to explore. Be open to new experiences and opportunities. I used to think if a person constantly changed jobs it meant they were unstable, and I still do to a certain extent. But, I’m open to the idea of knowing that once I’m older, I can look back, connect the dots and understand that by having a variety of jobs, I gained various skillsets. Nothing wrong with being well-rounded.

“A CareerBuilder survey shared that employers expect 45% of their newly hired college graduates to remain in the company for under two years, and by the time someone is 35, about 25% of millennials would have worked five jobs” 

I’ve been out of college for 10 months. So far, I’ve held two jobs, one of which I thought was my dream job. Here’s why:

In undergrad I aspired to be these things in this order:

  1. Biochemist  I’m really not sure why this was the case other than it sounded nice to go into STEM
  2. Counselor
  3. Urban Planner
  4. Non Profit Manager

Other than a biochemist, these other positions required accommodating growth, creating communities/relationships, offering guidance, and properly running an organization for a greater cause. Things I aspire to do. The issue was, every month I remained jobless, I used that time to figure out if it were possible to combine my career aspirations with my passion/hobbies. My passion is relationship building and connecting with others, and I enjoy doing that by being open and transparent on my social platforms. If I can share information or experiences, I’m willing to do just that knowing it can benefit someone else. So, I decided that my “dream” job was actually within Communications.

So, like any unemployed person would do, I started researching companies and applying to entry-level Comm Specialist positions and got denied every single time. After I had enough rejection, I decided to speak to someone directly in the PR/Marketing field and I started in my community. I called the PR/Marketing director of my village. We had a brief conversation. She referred me to various websites with companies and organizations that I could research and get my questions answered. I appreciated the resources, but that wasn’t the information I was looking for. Later on in the week I emailed her attaching a link to this website and my YouTube channel. I wanted her to know that I had social platforms and had been keeping them up for years and gained over 11K in fan base, so I was more than capable of sharing information. A month went by with no response.

Just as I was about to numb the idea that I could work in Communications, I got response from her stating that she loved my blog and wanted to have an in person meeting with me. When I arrived to the informal meeting, I was surprised to be given assignments, as she had made me a Staff Writer for my community. I was super excited! The position paid more than minimum wage and could be done on my own time, plus everything was online, so there was no need to go to an office setting. It’s been 9 months since I said yes, but the thrill I had is now gone.

hate my dream job

The reason why the spark is gone is because blogging is a hobby. I can write, type, edit, re-type, and re-edit for hours. Plus, I’m not prone to procrastination because I’m doing it on my own time for my own leisure. I don’t get paid to share my personal experiences. I do it because I genuinely love sharing testimonies. However, as a Staff Writer, my check depends on completing assignments. I have to write about events, interviews, etc. and they’re usually towards things I genuinely don’t care about which makes the process a chore. So, although I’m genuinely happy for the opportunity given to me, I’m not genuinely happy about the work I’m doing.

I’m also not ready to quit just yet. It’s definitely for money purposes which is a valid reason for anyone. The point is, I got an opportunity to work in a field that I wanted to try simply because I asked and the outcome was that I didn’t like it. I’m just happy that I can now say, “You know what, I did “x” and I didn’t like it”. I’ll never not know what it feels like to get paid to write.

And if you’re a 20 something reading this, try and develop that same mindset. If you’re currently not dedicated to a 9-5 or you have extra free time, use that opportunity to do something you really like. If you don’t have something you really like, use this opportunity to figure it out. Ask people to help you. Ask to shadow. Volunteer. You never know what doors can open for you. You never know what connections you’ll make. But don’t wait around wondering “what if”?

As always, thanks for reading

xoxo

Ambria

 

 

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