As I was going through my rough time during the months of October and November, I learned that good can come out of being vulnerable.
Yes, being open and transparent with others, even when it is difficult to do so has its benefits.
I usually have no problem being open and transparent on social platforms. It is when I have to have face to face encounters that I tense up and shut down from fear of saying the “wrong” thing or coming off as rude. Whether the blame is from my social media and technical upbringing or my severe fear of conflict, practicing vulnerability, especially with love ones opens a gateway of communication.
Before and after practicing vulnerability, I felt two ways:
First, I felt timid, soft-spoken, and invisible. My words did not always come out correctly and I did not fully understand my emotions. Thus, making discussion a difficult process. But then, after I became a little comfortable with expressing how I felt and owning up to my feelings, I began learning how to hold myself a little tighter for safety. I began learning what it means to be compassionate. I began learning what it means to be sympathetic. I began to really listen to others. And finally, I began learning to give as much love to others as I require.
It is an on going process, but one I am willing to partake in.
What is preventing you from being vulnerable? Confront it, and work on it day by day. It gets easier with time and practice.